Friday, November 21, 2008
Sick....
I dun feel 2 well lately... been feelin rather light-headed....get exhausted rather easily... been runnin on pure will power tis few days... my throat is even worse instead of better... gods sometimes i even feel lyk faintin due 2 so dizzy.... i dunno y tis is happenin 2 me... went 2 exercise earlier on... and nearly collapsed when i reach home.... i really dun feel well...
i have tis fear tt i may hve wad my mum has....cancer... i mean she got cancer twice and now not really sure if she can survive tis cancer... it's lyk in her genes or smth... mayb it's my mum's side .. i mean my aunts also hve cancer but not as serious as my mum...my cousin had brain tumour or cancer when he was roughly my age... i'm so scared of tt happenin 2 me... i mean every1 says i hve my mum's genes... i look lyk my father but i'm more lyk my mum in terms of personality... las time i wasn't afraid as i din tink i would be so lucky to get cancer... but now i'm not really sure... with all tis symptoms tt is rather similar 2 wad my mum had when she got cancer... i feel rather scared inside now... i juz hope tt tis is juz a normal illness... i can't bear it if ltr i find out i hve cancer in the third stage .... juz lyk my mum... i can't bear to leave behind all my frens and the increase in pressure on my father... he can barely cope now wif all my mum's medical fees... i dun wanna add to his burden.... i juz pray tt i will recover soon and normally... nth critical will happen... speakin of pray i thk Zhi Hao for his kind offer to get his pastor 2 pray for my mum, but my father will blow if he found out bout tt... i got nth else to say... gonna rest .... not R.I.P !!!
P.S Bye-Bye KK and Zihui as they fly off for their hols overseas!!! hope u can keep up the munshi or OBS spirit!!! Rmb us when you arrive bac in SGP!!!
going going gone....